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Mirza Khuda Bakhsh also lived exclusively with Mirza Ghulam Ahmad at Qadian

Mirza Khuda Bakhsh was a pupil of Noorudin and must have been ordered by Noorudin to move-in with MGA at Qadian and help MGA respond to letters, read out newspaper to MGA and many other clerical duties. There were a few others like Mualvi Abdul Karim, who also moved in 1890-1891. Syed Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi also moved in in this time period. Maulvi Noorudin moved in with MGA in 1893, after he was hired from his job in Jammu. Mufti Muhammad Sadiq also came and went into MGA’s house with respect and ease since 1889. Maulvi Muhammad Ali moved-in with MGA in roughly 1889. MGA‘s in-laws also lived exclusively with him in his mansion, they are Mir Nasir Nawab and his entire family. Khwaja Kamal ud Din was MGA’s main lawyer, there were many others who formed up this team, the number is mostly like 20+.

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Happy Birthday to You Mirza Ghulam

(See Khan “The construction of the Ahmadiyya Identity”, page 167).

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Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi lived exclusively in MGA’s house

Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi was initially working as a Mullah in the state of Bhopal, he worked exclusively for Nawab Siddiq Hasan Khan, who was the husband of the Queen of Bhopal, it seems that MGA sent him his Braheen-e-Ahmadiyya, I am not sure which volume, however, Nawab Siddiq Hasan Khan tore up the book and sent it back to MGA in that condition.

Ahsan Amrohi was also considered as one of the angels that the Messiah descended with.

The references
“””This misfortune encountered by Navvab Siddiq Hasan Khan was the result of a prophecy of mine which is mentioned in Barahin-e-Ahmadiyyah. He had torn up my book Barahin-e-
Ahmadiyyah and sent it back to me in that condition. I had then prayed that his honour might be torn up and that is what came to pass. [Tatimma Haqiqatul-Wahi, p. 37 footnote, Ruhani Khaza’in, vol. 22, p. 470 footnote].””” (also see Tadhikah, 2009 edition, online edition, pages 186-187).

“””Navvab Siddiq Hasan Khan… threatened non-Muslims with the sword of the Mahdi and was at last seized. His title of Navvab was revoked and he wrote very humbly to me requesting me to pray for him. Considering his situation pitiable, I supplicated for him and God the Almighty
addressed me and said:

[Urdu] His honour has been saved from being shattered.

…Finally, after some time he received orders of the Government to the effect that Siddiq Hasan Khan’s title of Navvab should be restored. [Tatimma Haqiqatul-Wahi, p. 37, Ruhani Khaza’in, vol. 22, p. 470] (also see Tadhikah, 2009 edition, online edition, pages 186-187).

Some brief commentary on this statement of MGA from 1907
MGA was fond of claiming to made prophecies many years before and then claiming then afterwards…there are many instances of this type of behavior.  Nawab Siddiq Hasan Khan seems to have fell out of favor with the British govt. in the mid-1880’s.  However, MGA was silent….MGA must sent him the Braheen before that..most likely 1879, nonetheless, MGA never published this prophecy til roughly 20 years later.

Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi knew of MGA thru the correspondance with Navvab Siddiq Hasan Khan
This is the context from wherein Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi knew MGA or had heard of MGA.  Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi was a follower of the Ahle-Hadith sect, he also knew Maulvi Nazir Hussain, who had read out MGA’s nikkah in 1884 in Delhi, he was the founder of the Ahle-Hadith sect.

The rulers of the state of Bhopal contributed heavily to the financing of the Braheen-e-Ahmadiyya in 1878
In Braheen e Ahmadiyya vol. 1 (1879), MGA published a list of contributors, these are those people who sent MGA money for 50 volumes of material, and 300 arguments on Islam (see page 3, BA-vol-1, online edition,

The list
1. Nawwab Shah Jahan Begam, GCSI, CI, Ruler of Bhopal
2. Nawwab Alauddin Ahmad Khan Bahadur, Ruler of
3. Maulavi Muhammad Charagh Ali Khan, Assistant
Deputy to the Prime Minister of the State of Hyderabad
4. Ghulam Qadir Khan, Minister of the State of Nalagarh,
5. Nawwab Mukarramud-Dawlah Bahadur, Hyderabad
6. Nawwab Nazirud-Dawlah Bahadur, Bhopal
7. Nawwab Sultanud-Dawlah Bahadur, Bhopal
8. Nawwab Ali Muhammad Khan Bahadur, Ludhiana,
9. Nawwab Ghulam Mahbub Subhani Khan Bahadur, Ra’ise-
A‘zam, Lahore
10. Sardar Ghulam Muhammad Khan, Ra’is, Wah
11. Mirza Saeed-ud-Din Ahmad Khan Bahadur, Extra
Assistant Commissioner, Ferozepur

(See BA-vol.1, page 3)

Nawab Siddiq Hasan Khan died in 1890 and Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi lost his job
As soon as Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi’s employer died…he was thus out of a job, he immediately wrote an essay in support of MGA and moved to Qadian later in mid 1891.

15 years after Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi moved to Qadian for employment, MGA fabricates a prediction that he claims to have had in 1891
Once it so happened that I was reading the poem of N‘imatullah Wali in which he has prophesied about my advent, has even mentioned my name, and has foretold that
the Promised Messiah would appear at the end of the thirteenth century of the Hijrah. Moreover, he has written a couplet concerning me [in Persian]: It means that the one who is
destined to come will be both the Mahdi and ‘Isa; both names will apply to him and he will make both these claims. While I was reciting this verse, I received the revelation:

This meant: [Persian] I see Maulavi Sayyed Muhammad Ahsan of Amroha has given up his
post in Bhopal State so as to pass his time near the Promised Messiah appointed by God and to strive in support of his claim.

This revelation is also mentioned in the paper “”Qadian”” dated
September 1, 1902, but the first line has instead of . Unless the narrator made a mistake, it seems that this revelation has two renderings. Allah knows best. [Mirza Bashir Ahmad]

This was a prophecy that was very clearly fulfilled afterwards. [Haqiqatul-Wahi, p. 333, Ruhani Khaza’in, vol. 22, p. 346] (see also Tadkirah, 2009 edition, online edition, page 227).

Amrohi was at the first Jalsa Salana in 1891, he was seated on the stage, right next to MGA
See page 417—

Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi lived exclusively in MGA’s house (1892)
Just like all the people in the inner circle of MGA, he lived exclusively with MGA and led prayers in the Masjid Mubarak, Maulvi Abdul Kareem and Noorudin also led the prayers in this tiny mosque which was the personal office of MGA(see page 430).  MGA barely went into his own house and never taught his children anything about Islam.  It is unclear whether or not Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi;s children or wife also lived with him in Qadian, however, it seems unlikely.

In 1892, Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi became a paid Mullah of MGA and took the lead in several debates
Ahmadiyya sources tell us Amrohi was the first paid mullah of Ahmadiyya, starting in late 1892, he then began touring the countryside and helping MGA with debates.

Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi and his 2 sons were listed in MGA’s list of 313 in 1896
His two sons were Muhammad Ismael Ghulam Kibria and Ahmad Hasan.

In 1900, he disagrees with the new prophethood of MGA

In 1908, Nooruddin nominates Amrohi as a possible choice for Khalifa
As we all know, Amrohi was highly praised in Ahmadiyya, this is another example, further, by 1909, almost all of MGA’s closest team of writers were forced to move out of MGA’ house, it is unclear if Amrohi also had to move out.

When Nooruddin died (1914), Amrohi was the first to nominate Mirza Basheer-uddin Mahmud Ahmad for the Khilafat
However, just 2 years (1916) later he seems to have been bought out by the Lahori-Ahmadis, he switched sides even after reviewing Mirza Basheer-uddin’s books of 1915, which forcefully promoted the prophethood of MGA.  Mirza Basheer-uddin Mahmud Ahmad covered this topic extensively here (see page 195) and many others…

He died in 1919
His books remain in Urdu and unexplored,

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Maulvi Abdul Karim lived exclusively with MGA on the 3rd floor of MGA’s house

MGA knew Maulvi Abdul Karim since his days at Sialkot in the early 1860’s. Further, he knew Nooruddin and Mufti Sadiq and worked for Nooruddin as an employee in Jammu. Nevertheless, when he moved to Qadian in 1891, he lived on the 3rd floor with his wife in MGA’s house. Further, I am sure that his wife, as well as Noorudin’s wife and MGA’s wife all ate together and raised their kids together, hence, there seem to be 20 people living in MGA’s house by 1892.
Here are some names of the main ghost writing team, Maulvi Abdul Karim, Maulvi Mufti Muhammad Sadiq, Maulvi Sher Ali and Hakim Fazl Din of Bhera. Some other people who came independently, yet still joined MGA’s team was Maulvi Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi, who was also a member of the Ahl-e-Hadith sect, in fact, uptil his job with MGA, he worked for the founder of the Ahl-e-Hadith sect, Syed Nazeer Husain from Delhi and Siddiq Hasan Khan of Bhopal. Ahsan Amrohi was an imam under Siddiq Hassan Khan until he died in roughly 1890, he was immediately hired by MGA. Maulvi Muhammad Ali was another, however, he came via Khwaja Kamaluddin and the prominent Ahmadi’s of Lahore.

The Quotes

“”””When in May 1899 Maulana Muhammad Ali arrived in Qadian, the Promised Messiah gave him accommodation on the third storey of his own house. The ground floor was for guests, while he and his family occupied the middle storey. This storey was adjacent to the Masjid-i-Mubarak and there was a hatch from one room into this mosque through which Hazrat Mirza sahib used to enter the mosque. On one side of the same floor lived Maulana Nur-ud-Din. It was above his room, on the third storey, that Hazrat Mirza sahib made space for Maulana Muhammad Ali.

He had a room and a small courtyard. There was a stairway in the room which went down to the Promised Messiah’s courtyard and the other door opened into the small courtyard. The door of the small courtyard opened on the roof of the Masjid-i-Mubarak. This roof was used in the summer for maghrib and isha prayers, and it was here also that Hazrat Mirza sahib used to sit for his evening gatherings. Next to his room was Maulana Abdul Karim’s room, and his courtyard was also adjacent to the roof of the Masjid-i-Mubarak. From the courtyard next to Maulana Muhammad Ali’s room there was a little stairway going down into a tiny room, and this place served as his office. It was in there that he produced those invaluable English writings for the magazine the Review of Religions,whose language was so perfect that it was alleged that the Promised Messiah must be keeping an Englishman to do the writing!””””  (See “A Mighty Striving” aka “Mujahid-e-Kabir”, written by Mr. Muhammad Ahmad and Mr. Mumtaz Ahmad Faruqui, english translation by Mrs. Akhtar Aziz and Dr. Zahid Aziz).  

MGA and his team planned every single move.  They all lived in the same house and hence knew each other closely.  They seem to have concocted the business of Ahmadiyya and launched it and thus made lots of money.

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Muhammad Ali lived exclusively within Mirza Ghulam Ahmad’s house for almost 10 years, 1899–1909

As we all know, MGA employed many ghost writers.  They were, Nooruddin, Mufti Sadiq, Muhammad Ali, Maulvi Abdul Kareem, The Amrohi, and many many more.  All of these people lived with MGA, and thus knew of all of MGA’s habits.  They were all employees and were promised many fortunes.  Muhammad Ali lived in close-quarters with MGA and his sons and his entire family, in-fact, Muhammad Ali’s wife also lived with him and she must have interacted with the family of Nooruddin, Abdul Kareem and many others who were also living there.

The Quotes

“”””When in May 1899 Maulana Muhammad Ali arrived in Qadian, the Promised Messiah gave him accommodation on the third storey of his own house. The ground floor was for guests, while he and his family occupied the middle storey. This storey was adjacent to the Masjid-i-Mubarak and there was a hatch from one room into this mosque through which Hazrat Mirza sahib used to enter the mosque. On one side of the same floor lived Maulana Nur-ud-Din. It was above his room, on the third storey, that Hazrat Mirza sahib made space for Maulana Muhammad Ali.

He had a room and a small courtyard. There was a stairway in the room which went down to the Promised Messiah’s courtyard and the other door opened into the small courtyard. The door of the small courtyard opened on the roof of the Masjid-i-Mubarak. This roof was used in the summer for maghrib and isha prayers, and it was here also that Hazrat Mirza sahib used to sit for his evening gatherings. Next to his room was Maulana Abdul Karim’s room, and his courtyard was also adjacent to the roof of the Masjid-i-Mubarak. From the courtyard next to Maulana Muhammad Ali’s room there was a little stairway going down into a tiny room, and this place served as his office. It was in there that he produced those invaluable English writings for the magazine the Review of Religions,whose language was so perfect that it was alleged that the Promised Messiah must be keeping an Englishman to do the writing!””””  (See “A Mighty Striving” aka “Mujahid-e-Kabir”, written by Mr. Muhammad Ahmad and Mr. Mumtaz Ahmad Faruqui, english translation by Mrs. Akhtar Aziz and Dr. Zahid Aziz).    

Muhammad Ali moved out of MGA’s house in the early–1909
“””For some time after the death of the Promised Messiah, Maulana Muhammad Ali continued living in his house, and he lived there altogether for eight to nine years. Probably at the beginning of 1909 he moved to a house adjoining the Promised Messiah’s house which was known as the old guest house. Here he stayed for four to five months. After that, he was given a new house by the Anjuman in the Dar-ul-Ulum area where the Anjuman’s school, boarding house, the Nur mosque and a dispensary were under construction. This house consisted of three rooms, one of which was not of solid construction.  Here he stayed till April 1914. Two of his nephews also lived with him, whom he had called to Qadian for their schooling. It was after moving to this house that he started the work on the English translation of the Quran, and he continued doing it for the last four years of his life in Qadian in addition to his other duties.””””(See “A Mighty Striving” aka “Mujahid-e-Kabir”, written by Mr. Muhammad Ahmad and Mr. Mumtaz Ahmad Faruqui, english translation by Mrs. Akhtar Aziz and Dr. Zahid Aziz).

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The history of #Ahmadiyya in Cameroon

Watch my video on this herein. The Ahmadiyya movement was not given access to the French colony of Cameroon. In fact, the French hated the Ahmadiyya movement and never allowed them into any of their colonies, it was only the British colonies wherein Ahmadiyya was implanted. Nevertheless, per the CIA factbook, by 2018, only 24% of the country is Muslim, who live almost exclusively in the northern area and western area of the country wherein Chad and Nigeria are nearby (and the old islamic trade routes). This area was an old Islamic empire which was broken by the European powers and divided. The dominant Muslim tribe in the north is the Fulani (or Peuhl) ethnic group. In the western region, the Bamoun ethnic group is predominately Muslim. Moreover, the Christian community in Cameroon is mostly in the central and southern region of the country.

It is unclear when the Ahmadiyya community got access to Cameroon, however, it seems to be after 2000. The first Jalsa was held in 2014 (at Foumban, Cameroon, where the first Ahmadiyya mosque is), thus proving that by 2014, there were barely any Ahmadi’s in Cameroon. There are only 2 Ahmadiyya place of worship in the entire country. Those can only hold roughly 500 worshippers each. We estimate that there are barely 500 Ahmadi’s in Cameroon as of 2020. However, unofficial Ahmadiyya sources are claiming that there are 430,000 Ahmadi’s in this country, which is a total lie, in fact, the pew research study that they took this from simply asked 100 Muslims a bunch of questions, of which 12 were Ahmadi. Ahmadi’s took this data and claim that 12% of the Muslim population is Ahmadi, which is total academic dishonesty.
The Missionary-in-Charge of Jamaat-e-Ahmadiyya in Cameroon Nayyar Abdul Khalique 

A Pakistani, Nayyar Abdul Khalique is the missionary-in-charge for the entire country. There doesn’t seem to be any additional Ahmadi missionaries (See at the 1:10 mark).
Only two Ahmadiyya place of worship in the whole country of Cameroon

The northern area is solid Muslim, most likely Maliki-Muslims, who have never converted to Ahmadiyya. The first Ahmadiyya place of worship is in Foumban, Cameroon, and just opened in 2019. The second seems to be in Nguti, Cameroon and is called Baitus Salam.

Ahmadiyya place of worship in Foumban

Inauguration of the Ahmadiyya Mosque in Foumban, Cameroon


How did the Europeans defeat the islamic empires?

In the early periods following the arrival of Islam in the region, Muslims were politically active and founded local sultanates. Political structures like the Kanem State and the Bornu Sultanate ruled North Cameroon for decades in the 19th century. These sultanates existed until colonizers began to occupy the region. The northern regions of Cameroon were taken under the control of the Adamawa Emirate, which was subject to the Sokoto Caliphate founded in Northern Nigeria in 1804. Having occupied Cameroon in 1884, the Germans violently oppressed the Muslims who had been in positions of power and diminished their political power in order to consolidate German authority.

The first ever Jalsa Salana was held in Cameroon, thus proving that there was barely any Ahmadi’s in Cameroon by 2013. 

The first Ahmadiyya place of worship was opened in Foumban, Cameroon.


Mirza Masroor Ahmad claims that 13,000 Cameroonians converted to Ahmadiyya in 2019-2020, which is a lie.

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Mirza Ghulam Ahmad claimed that Noorudin and Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi were the 2 angels that he descended with

MGA and his team of writers were always perplexed about a hadith report from Sahih-Muslim and an identical report from Ibn Majah. In both of these hadith, it was told by Muhammad (saw) that when Esa (as) would physically descend from heaven, he would physically have 2 angels on his side. In 1914, Kwaja Kamaluddin tells us (See The Causes of Internal Dissensions in the Ahmadiyya Movement, By Khwaja Kamaluddin, 1914) that these 2 angels were Noorudin and Syed Muhammad Ahsan Amrohi. MGA also said it in one of his books, however, we can’t find that at the moment.

In Khwaja’s book, he didn’t talk about the hadith specifically, however, we know that this is the famous hadith from Muslim and Ibn Majah (when they refer to the 2 angels).

_____________________________________________________________________________________________The Quote

“””No one can deny that Sayyid Muhammad Ahsan is one of the two scholarly men whom the Promised Messiah appointed to the Sadr Anjuman Ahmadiyya as one of the two men of learning [as required by its rules]. He called him as one of his angels. He is indeed an ahl adh-dhikr (having authoritative knowledge). However, when two such men of authoritative knowledge differ, who is right?1 Was not Hazrat Maulana Nur-ud-Din also a man of authoritative knowledge? Was he not also the first angel of the Promised Messiah? His merit and worthiness was borne witness to by Divine revelation [of the Promised Messiah about him]. Of these two leading figures, whose opinion should we accept?””
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How did Mirza Basheer ud Din Mahmud Ahmad marry his 3rd wife? The mother of Mirza Tahir Ahmad?

In 1917-1918, the Khalifa was in his second wife’s living quarters and was walking out of the wash room and noticed a 10-12 year old girl (Syedah Maryam) playing in his courtyard. He asked his second wife (Amtul Haye) as to who she was. She told him that this was the daughter of Dr Syed Abdus Sattar Shah. He married her 3 years later (1921), she was barely 12-14 years old, the Khalifa was 35. She was given private quarters and thus moved in with the Khalifa at his mansion at Qadian. 3 years later, Amtul Haye died mysteriously. Nevertheless, she had her first child with the Khalifa in roughly 1924-25, he died in infancy, Mirza Tahir Ahmad was born in 1928, he would go on to be the 4th Khalifa.

Meri Maryam, Anwar-ul-Ulum, Vol. 17, pp. 347-372; Al Fazl, 12 July 1944, pp. 1-8

Having remained ill for quite some time, Hazrat Umm-e-Tahir, Syeda Maryam Begum Sahibara, passed away on 5 March 1944. This naturally brought grief to the Jamaat at large, but it struck her husband, Hazrat Mirza Bashiruddin Mahmud Ahmad, Khalifatul Masih IIra the most.

For approximately three months, Huzoorra did not write anything about her. However, under the Islamic teaching of remembering the righteous qualities of the deceased, Huzoorra penned a beautiful obituary of his noble wife, alongside mentioning the noble qualities she possessed and the services she rendered for the Jamaat. This book perfectly depicts Hazrat Musleh-e-Maud’sra tenderhearted nature and affection.

Hazrat Mirza Bashiruddin Mahmud Ahmad, Khalifatul Masih IIra

Syeda Umm-e-Tahir’s youth

Approximately 36 years ago, the Promised Messiah, peace be upon him, settled the nikah of our younger brother, the late Mubarak Ahmad, with Maryam Begum, daughter of Dr Syed Abdus Sattar Shah Sahibra. The purpose behind the nikah was probably to see the practical fulfilment of some dreams and eliminate any subsequent cautionary aspects. However, Allah’s decree came to pass and Mubarak Ahmad returned to his Lord.

The young girl, who was completely oblivious to the concept of marriage owing to her age, began to be referred to as a widow. At the time, Maryam was two and a half years old. She would often leave the Gol Kamra [the round room – best known for being a guest room in the life of the Promised Messiahas] where the late Dr Syed Abdus Sattar Shah Sahibra would reside, and along with her niece, Naseera, she would come upstairs [to the main part of the house] and play. At times, they would become somewhat perturbed and start crying and thus, I would sometimes pick up Maryam or Naseera and take them back to the Gol Kamra.

On such occasions, it was unimaginable that the girl I had picked up to take back downstairs would one day become my wife. What was even more unimaginable was that I would one day have to pick her up and lower her, not towards the Gol Kamra, but towards her final resting place; not with the thought that I would see her face again, but with the certainty that the face I saw before me in the coffin would be the last time I would see it with my physical eyes and that I would never be able to speak to her again.

1907 to 1917

The young Mubarak Ahmad passed away and Dr [Syed Abdus Sattar Shah] Sahib’s leave had come to an end. He returned to his work in Raya, District Sialkot. Syed Waliullah Shah Sahib and Dr Syed Habibullah Shah Sahib were studying at school at the time. Both were my friends, but Dr Habib was closer than most friends. We were both very similar and inseparable as peers, but I had never imagined that their sister would again be a part of our family.

My friendship with him was only because of him and not because their sister and our brother were, for a short period, married. Many days and many years had passed and Maryam’s name was erased from our memories.

One day – either in 1917 or 1918, after the demise of Hazrat Khalifatul Masih Ira – I was in the house of my late wife Amatul Hayy. As I left the washroom and approached our room, at the edge of the courtyard that was in between both rooms I noticed a very thin girl dressed in white and, after seeing me, move back against a wooden wall and wrapping herself [as if to hide]. As I entered our room, I asked my late wife, “Amatul Hayy, who is that girl standing outside?” to which she replied, “Did you not recognise her? She is Maryam, daughter of Dr Syed Abdus Sattar Shah Sahib.”

I was surprised and said that she had covered herself and that even if she had been in front of me, I would not have been able to recognise her. After 1907, that was the first time when Maryam came into my thoughts.

Nikah with Maryam

Now, I began enquiring whether her marriage had been settled anywhere, but I received the response, “We are Sadat [belonging to the Syed family – the lineage of Hazrat Fatima and Hazrat Ali, Allah be pleased with them]; our widows do not remarry. If she is to marry in the
household of the Promised Messiahas then we will allow it, otherwise she will spend her entire life as a widow.”

This came as a shock to me. Therefore, I tried my utmost to arrange Maryam’s Nikah elsewhere, but it came to no avail. Eventually, I attempted to convince my brothers through various means. I would tell them, “Her life should not go to waste in this manner,” and would urge them to consider marrying her, but I always received a negative response.

It was at that point that the thought occurred to me: No action of the Promised Messiahas should prove damaging to a person. Thus, it was for this reason (and because I had a cordial friendship with Syed Habibullah Shah Sahib and Syed Mahmudullah Shah Sahib) that I decided to marry Maryam myself.

Early photo of Masjid Mubarak, Qadian, where Hazrat Mirza Bashiruddin Mahmud Ahmad’sra Nikah was announced with Hazrat Umm-e-Tahir, Maryam Begumra

Thus, in 1920, I sent my proposal through the late Dr Syed Abdus Sattar Shah Sahib, which was accepted and on 7 February 1921 our nikah took place in the old part of Masjid Mubarak [Qadian]. It was more of a house of mourning than a nikah ceremony; all that could be heard was the wailing of worshippers; tears streamed down all faces.

Eventually, I brought Maryam to our home in a very simple manner and left her at the house of Hazrat Ummul Momineen [wife of the Promised Messiahas, Hazrat (Amma Jan) Nusrat Jehan Begum Sahibara]. She allocated a room for her where I would stay with her frequently. The room where Maryam Siddiqa now resides was the same room where she resided for five years and where her first child was born – Tahir Ahmad (the first, who died at a young age).

It was after his birth that she fell extremely ill and this illness eventually led to her demise.

Early days of marriage

In the early days of our marriage, [Maryam] was extremely thin and had certain facial features that were not very pleasant to me. Similarly, she had a strong Punjabi accent and I detest the usage of Punjabi in our home. She was somewhat facetious in nature and while speaking in Urdu, she would often deliberately mix Punjabi words in her sentences to irritate me.

As she was her parent’s favourite child, if she did not like something, it would irritate her and make her cry profusely, causing a stream of tears. At times, she would cry incessantly for a couple of days. Perhaps this was due to traces of hysteria. When I travelled to England, there was some sort of friction between her and the late Amatul Hayy and as a result, I became somewhat displeased with her. Upon my return, I found that most of the fault actually lay with Amatul Hayy. Due to that displeasure, in the initial part of the journey, I did not write to Maryam but, Alhamdolillah, Allah soon enabled me to realise the reality and I saved her from any further hurt.

I wrote a loving letter to her from Italy, which she preserved. I wrote a couplet in it also, the gist of which is that Rome is a beautiful city, but without you, it appears in ruins. One day, that couplet was mentioned in 1930, seven years after my journey to Europe. As soon as she heard the couplet, she shot up and brought the letter to me saying, “I have kept that letter ever since!” I sent the same couplet to Amatul Hayy. It is strange that God’s will had it that they would both pass away, leaving me alone not just in Rome but to live in this world.

Final promise to Syeda Amatul Hayy

A few days after returning from England, Amatul Hayy passed away. I could not find anyone to care for her young children. Right before her demise, Amatul Hayy expressed great concern for her children’s upbringing. She would express her concern especially for Amatul Qayum Begum [along with the rest of the children] by saying, “[Amatur] Rashid, being brought up by a wet-nurse, will not remember me after I am gone. Khalil is only a month-old and will never know me. Amatul Qayum is the eldest; What will become of her?”

She would glance at each of her children one after the other, but on this subject, she never glanced at me. Perhaps she thought to herself, “What does a man know about raising children?” I would repeatedly look towards her to say something but would supress my feelings in the presence of other people.

Eventually, when we got a moment of privacy, I said to her, “Amatul Hayy, why do you worry so much? If I live, I will look after your children and Insha-Allah will not let any harm come their way.” For her solace I uttered those words, but in reality, I hadn’t a clue what to do.

Fulfilment of a promise

The night after Amatul Hayy’s demise, I asked Maryam, “A heavy burden has been placed on my shoulders. Can you help me?” Allah bless her soul a thousand times over for she immediately replied, “Yes, I will take care of them! Just as a mother brings up her children, I will raise them.”

The following day, I brought [Amatul] Qayum and [Amatur] Rashid to Maryam as a way of passing them on to her. Both of us were oblivious that we were, in fact, giving consent to her death, because as a consequence of this responsibility, both of us endured many hardships. However, it was a result of those hardships that we remained hopeful of Allah’s blessings.

Amatul Hayy was very dear to me and still is to this day. But I cannot truthfully say for sure that if she remained alive, she would have attended to her children when they fell ill in the same way as Maryam attended to them. May Allah raise her soul to the closest possible station to His threshold and may Allah show mercy upon me too. It was no ordinary thing for a 19-year old girl to suddenly become a mother of three. However, she readily and enthusiastically took up the responsibility and helped me in a time when nobody in the world could. She relieved me of a promise I had made at a time when I saw no way of fulfilling it. That moment is still before my eyes when I took Qayum and Rashid to Maryam and she embraced them with tearful eyes, saying, “From now on, I am your mother.” The girls, who were still weeping and scared, immediately jumped into her arms.

A prayer for love that God accepted

At that moment, I made a pledge to her:

“Maryam, if you raise these children, I promise that I will love you immeasurably”. I cried and cried before God, praying that Allah developed love in my heart for her, which He heard. From that day onwards, I had great love for her. Any reservations I ever had were removed and she won my heart over. A face that was unpleasant for me became the most beautiful face in the world and her carefree attitude which once offended me became her birth right.

Astonishing intelligence

Maryam was not very literate, and her handwriting was very untidy. She could not read or write very fluently. She would take lessons for a few days before dropping them, however she was remarkably intelligent. She could take a hint through the subtlest of facial expressions and body language. One would think that she had her very own way of acquiring knowledge of the unseen. She possessed a very sensitive temperament. Where sarcasm was not the motive, she knew how to extract it; where displeasure was not intended, she would still sense it. If she was treated better than others, even then she would feel as though she was being subjected to injustice.

This was all something that I was the prime subject of, and this was where her intelligence would be rendered useless.

Her pure faith in Ahmadiyyat

Maryam had true faith in Ahmadiyyat. She had a deep love and dedication for the Promised Messiah, peace be upon him. She loved the Holy Quran and would recite it melodiously. She learnt the recitation of the Quran from a hafiz and for that reason – albeit with slight overemphasis – she could pronounce the Arabic t’s and q’s very well. She was not capable of initiating intellectual discussions but would thoroughly enjoy thought-provoking talks.

On Fridays, if the sermon was on a special subject, after the sermon, I would enter our house with the certainty that Maryam’s face would be beaming with pleasure and that she would immediately overwhelm me with compliments, saying that she had really enjoyed it. This certainty would very rarely be proven wrong. I would always find her waiting for me at the door. Her whole being would be buzzing with ecstasy at such moments.

A brave woman

Maryam was extremely courageous. In sensitive times, I knew with full confidence that I could rely on her. Her feminine weaknesses would automatically be supressed at such moments and she would put on a brave face of tenacity and determination, so much so that an onlooker would be convinced that other than death or success, there was no other option for her. She would rather face death than withdraw from her assigned responsibility.

In desperate times, my beloved spent many late hours assisting me in my work and never complained of fatigue. Merely saying, “This is the Jamaat’s work,” or, “This could be a potential danger for the Jamaat,” or, “It could bring the Jamaat to disrepute” would suffice for her and she would selflessly pounce at the occasion.

She would forget about eating; she would forget about her children and what’s more is that she would forget about me; her entire focus would be on the task at hand. Only after the task had been accomplished would she exist. Either that, or she would surround herself with hot water bottles, wrap her swollen abdomen and lay down in a manner that would appear as though she had just returned from hospital after a major operation. In actual fact, the tasks would be no less than complicated operations for her ailing body.

Miscellaneous qualities

She knew brilliantly how to find enjoyment in things. She could mend broken souls [by putting smiles back on their faces]. She had a deep passion for horse-riding; she was good at shooting and when her aim proved more precise than mine, she would overwhelmingly rejoice.

She alone knew how to find enjoyment in mountain hiking and crossing rivers. She travelled with me to Kashmir in 1921 during the rainy season. I would implore her to be serious, while she had continuous outbursts of laughter. This resulted in neither seriousness, nor laughter and the “torrential rain” of tears continued to flow until our return from Kashmir. The second time we went to Kashmir was on Maryam’s request, which was around 1929.

Now, Maryam had three children of her own, as well as three of Amatul Hayy’s. As a result, Maryam was somewhat more mature as compared to the previous trip. Also, I had far more appreciation due to her fostering Amatul Hayy’s children and thus, her laughter was always welcome in that atmosphere. Thus, on that trip we had a great time seeing the sights in Kashmir and filled the void that was left in the 1921 trip. However, the only thing that remained was her desire to see Kashmir with me alone, without any other wife accompanying me.

A self-contradiction

Maryam had a strange characteristic, which was somewhat self-contradictory in that she showed immense love to all my children, no matter which mother they were from, to the point that she expressed deep respect for them, however she would struggle to get along with my other wives. She would not quarrel like an uncultured person but would certainly hold a grudge. She always had the desire to be given special treatment, but because I was unable to do this under the instruction of God and His Prophetsa, she would be certain that I never loved her and that I loved my other wives more.

A question by Syeda Umm-e-Tahir and its answer

At times, when we were alone, she would ask me, “Who do you love the most?” to which I always gave the reply, “God Almighty’s instruction forbids me from answering this.” Upon hearing this she would become cross and fall silent. But for the past few years, she had given up asking me that question.

Today, if Allah brought her to this world and enabled her to see the rays of light constantly shimmering from my heart, extending to the Heavens in supplication for mercy and clinging on to God’s throne, she would know the answer to her question. If she could be granted permission to enter this world again, she would see my zikr-e-Ilahi [remembrance of Allah] in which, whenever I praise God, the thought of His Purity covers and envelops me, causing me to tremble and further causing me to spontaneously cry out in the final moments of His praise, “O You Who are the Pure God! Will you not purify my Maryam?”;or when praising God in my thoughts, the whole world begins to praise God and all that exists in the Heavens and the Earth is the praise of God, which ultimately causes me to shudder and my heart to skip a beat, resulting in my spontaneous cry, “O God; The Being Who every particle praises! Will you not make my Maryam the recipient of Your praise?”

If her soul was able to witness this, how regretful would she be for her prolonged misconceptions. O my Lord! O my Lord! For a long period, I suppressed myself to fulfil Your command. Will You not keep my Maryam happy in the next world in return for this? O my Master! I beseech Your mercy and prostrate my being before You. Accept this supplication of mine and keep the flame [of love] between us alive forever and protect it from all calamities and misfortunes.


My Maryam had immense love for my relatives and would show more love for them than her own. She had a deep connection with my brothers, sisters, uncles and their children. She would hold their sincere opinions in high esteem and would take all possible measures to see that they be fulfilled. She had a special desire to serve Hazrat Ummul-Momineenra [the noble wife of the Promised Messiahas]. Initially, when she resided in her house, she was hurt by one or two housemaids due to which she kept her distance in the first couple of years.

However, that distance soon vanished. If anyone was suffering in our family, Maryam would be the first to respond and would not tire from spending night and day attending to them. During pregnancy, despite being severely ill herself, she would sit and hold her abdomen for hours without complaining in the slightest.

High standard of hospitality

She was extremely hospitable. She would try to accommodate everyone in her home and during the Jalsa period, she would refrain as much as possible in requesting food from the Langar Khana [Jamaat’s kitchen] for the guests at home. She would burden herself and assign tasks to the children in order to please her guests. She would burden herself with so much at times that I would be displeased and say, “After all, the central guest house is made for this very purpose; why do you compromise your health by overburdening yourself? Eventually, I will have to bear the burden of your illness.”

No advice in this regard would make a difference. Would that her hospitality benefits her now for she is in divine hospitality and that the most Beneficent Host grant her lone soul a place in Jannatul-Firdaus [the highest status of Paradise].

Sound memory

Upon the demise of the late Amatul Hayy, I started a talimi [educational] class as a means of encouraging education among young girls. Maryam also joined. However, her heart was not set on books, rather she preferred practical tasks. She could not bear the burden and so withdrew from education after only a few months. Yet, her memory was so sharp that only until recently, she knew committed Arabic poems to memory, which she had come across during those days. Only a few months back, she sang an Arabic poem for me.

Syeda Sara Begum’s children

When I intended to promote female education and in doing so, married the late Sara Begum, [Maryam] promised to let her stay with her, though she was unable to keep this promise and eventually they both had to make separate arrangements. Their rivalry continued until Sara Begum’s demise, after which [Maryam] showed so much love to her children that they revered her just as a mother deserves.

Onset of poor health

I have mentioned that at the birth of her first child, Maryam Begum was afflicted with an internal infection that would get aggravated at every birth. It would further aggravate when she would have to perform hard work. I tried my best to treat the condition, but it was to no avail. She was admitted twice to Aitchison Hospital for treatment. She also attempted to get treatment in Lahore Cantonment [Military Hospital]. Esteemed doctors, the likes of Dr Nelson, Dr Hayes and Dr Cox were consulted, but there was never any considerable improvement and only momentary relief. She was sensitive by nature and as a result, she could not tolerate anything conflicting her desire.

Many a time, she would fall unconscious after she had been irritable and this would harm her internally. Eventually, I was forced to tell her – albeit very reluctantly – that if she had such a fit again, I would not come near her for treatment. I knew that they were displays of hysteric behaviour and that my saying this would benefit her. When she displayed such behaviour, I would call the doctor and leave due to which she started to suppress such emotions and never had such bouts for the last three or four years of her life.

Extraordinary progress of Lajna tasks

I have written above that her heart was set on practical work rather than books. When Sara Begum passed away, Maryam’s passion for work was ignited and she took upon herself the workload of Lajna [Imaillah]. The ladies of the Jamaat bore witness to the manner in which she fulfilled the responsibility, despite not being well-educated. She put her heart and soul into her Lajna work. The Lajna [Imaillah] today is not the Lajna it used to be during the time of the late Amatul Hayy and Sara Begum.

Today, it is an organised community wherein there is great potential to excel. She infuriated some but pleased many. Catering for widowed wives, bringing up orphaned children, enquiring about the frail, giving a helping hand in the organisation of Jalsa and extending hospitality and warmth to those ladies who had travelled from far [were just some of her qualities].

She broadened the scope of the organisation in every faculty in a better manner than before. But when one takes into account that she mostly managed the organisation laying on a charpoy surrounded by hot water bottles, the hearts of perceptive people are filled with love and appreciation for her. O my Lord! Have mercy on both of us.

Illness of 1942

In 1942, while I was in Sindh, [Maryam] fell extremely ill. Her heart’s condition had dropped significantly. I received a telegram that her heart was in a poor state. I enquired as to whether I should return, to which I was told that her health had restored. The effects upon the heart attack lasted a few months and improved somewhere between June and July.

That same year and in the same period, Umm-e-Nasir Ahmad also suffered a heart attack. The causes were unknown.

In May 1943, I took her to Delhi to seek treatment from hakims [Eastern physicians]. We visited Hakim Mahmud Ahmad Khan Sahib’s son for treatment, but [Maryam] only ever treated herself with the method she pleased. Thus, she was not willing to undergo that treatment and did not complete the course. There, she suffered another minor attack, but her health quickly restored.

On the train to and from [Delhi], she would lie on the floor and lay the children of my other wives on the berths. Upon our return from Delhi, I suffered a severe chest infection and fever for which Maryam painstakingly attended to me. During those hot summer days, she would reside with me and would often carry the commode for me and empty it herself. She would continue cooking for me and constantly remain on her feet. If I ever stayed up at night, she would stay awake with me and if I fell asleep and woke up coughing, she would be the first to attend to me. When I somewhat recovered from that illness and travelled to Dalhousie, she immediately took on the responsibility of the kitchen and putting the residence in order.

There, she also experienced very poor health but due to my illness, she never expressed any signs of discomfort.

Trip to Chamba [India]

When I recovered a little more and travelled to Chamba, despite being ill, she was persistent to accompany me. There, she did horse-riding because for a portion of the journey, we could not find a dandi [a sort of sedan chair swung on poles and borne on the shoulders of porters, used in the hills]. I explained to her that going in that condition would not be a good idea, but as customary, her reply was, “You don’t want me to enjoy myself; I am definitely going!”

Eventually, keeping in mind her illness, I stopped others from going and took her along.

Struggles in Ramadan

Ramadan followed this and according to Indian custom, the people travelling with us began complaining about the food. After all, servants have a specific temperament and it resulted in [Maryam] waking up in the early hours to cook approximately six to eight pounds of parathas [South Asian bread fried on a griddle] and provide them to everyone for sehri [the early morning breakfast during Ramadan] despite her life-threatening condition. This caused her immune system to weaken considerably and her ability to fight the illness became unstable.

Due to weakness I was not able to fast, but as soon as I found out about this, I stopped her from carrying out those duties, to which she replied, “Who knows if I am given the opportunity to do something virtuous afterwards,” and carried on performing this task.

Severe attack

When we returned home, her condition was still feeble. After three or four weeks, she suffered another vicious attack. I was suffering from kidney pains at the time. It was then that I was made aware that the attack could be fatal for her. That was the first time the thought of Maryam’s death occurred to me.

I was in no condition to walk, so when I was left alone in the room, I fell face-down on the charpoy and helplessly and humbly prayed before my Lord. God Almighty showed mercy by deferring the hour of her death and when I recovered, I regularly visited her.

The final attack

I suffered from gout a few days later and was again unable to visit her. Due to an error on the part of the doctors, Maryam Begum was injected with medicine that did not suit her, something which she repeatedly cried out. Later, during my stay in Lahore, I found out through various senior doctors how that injection was in fact injurious to her condition. The effect of that injection was such that it bloated her abdomen to the point where it became apparently obvious.

Due to the gout, I struggled to get to her. When I reached her and found that her condition had worsened, I immediately called Col Hayes from Lahore and Lady Dr Vine from Amritsar. The following day, they both arrived and suggested that she be transferred to Lahore. Accordingly, she was taken to Lahore by road on 17 December 1943. Col Hayes decided that he would treat her through various medications and so, he commenced with his plan from 17 December to 8 or 9 January.

An operation

Eventually, however, a verdict was reached: the only way forward was an operation. Dr Mir Muhammad Ismail Sahib was averse to this, but I could not see any other way out of it.

Thus, I presented the situation to [Maryam] and said, “Whatever you decide, that will be the final decision.” Her reply was that they should go forward with the operation. Although she tactfully put those words together but a lady who resided with her told me that she would often say to her, “Pray that Hazrat Sahib does not feel apprehensive about the operation at the last minute,” which shows that she herself considered the operation necessary.

Anyhow, the operation was performed on 15 January [1944], after which her recovery was not well maintained. This resulted in her heart condition worsening. It was then that the doctors paid heed to the circumstances and blood was transfused into her body, assisting in her gradual recovery.

Fatal condition after recovery

On 25 March, I was told that she would be released from hospital in a few days due to which I sought leave [from her] and returned to Qadian for a few days.

It was after I had returned to Qadian that her health deteriorated again and the incision that was thought to have healed was opened up again. I was kept unaware of all this and as a result, I continued to stay in Qadian for the entire week. Dr Ghulam Mustafa, who helped tremendously during her illness – may Allah reward him the best reward – reassured us through constant phone calls and telegrams that I did not need to hasten in returning.

But on Thursday evening, I received a telephone call from Sheikh Bashir Ahmad Sahib, saying, “Brother Syed Habibullah Shah Sahib says that his sister’s health is weak and that you should come immediately.” After hearing this, I returned to Lahore on Friday and found her extremely weak. The weakness was such that from thereon, she never regained good health.

Expenditure on treatment

Two nurses were assigned to repeatedly check up on her, day and night, and because their fees were approximately 50 or 60 rupees daily, I realised that it was a burden on her. She expressed to a few of her close friends, “Because of me, he is burdened with so much.” I somehow got to know of this and reassured her by saying, “Maryam, do not worry at all. I am spending this money for your comfort, not to trouble you.”

I also told some of her close friends to explain to her that the expenditure brought comfort and happiness to me and that God was witness to that. This reached a point where one day, I thought to myself that her treatment had spanned over a significant period of time and questioned how I could afford future treatment. Shortly after, without a hint of hesitation, I decied that I would sell the residence of Dar-ul-Hamd and the adjacent orchard. I thought to myself that the cost of both were quite high, but if it was sold for even a meagre amount, it would sell for no less than 75,000 rupees.

In this manner, if I had to bear the expenditure of Maryam’s treatment for even a year, then I could afford 6,000 rupees per month without worrying. And that is not all; I was prepared to sell every part of my property for Maryam Begum’s sake just to keep her alive, even if it meant through illness.

Prayer to prevent suffering during illness

A few days had passed when I felt that she was suffering a great deal due to her illness, which was made all the more unbearable by her wound. It was then that I prayed to God, saying:

“O my Lord! You possess the power to bestow health. First, I beg you to bestow health upon Maryam Begum. But, if for any reason you feel that Maryam Begum’s existence in this world is neither positive for her life and faith, nor mine, then O my Lord, save her from such suffering that can harm her faith.”

After this prayer, which was said eight or nine days prior to her demise, I witnessed a gradual decline in her physical pain, but the pain caused by weakness and heart problems increased. The apparent reason was that we had moved her to Sir Ganga Ram Hospital to be treated by Dr Barocha who had started giving her sedatives as treatment.

Final moments

In any case, the end was drawing closer. She and I both had complete trust in Allah.

Upon seeing her frail condition the day before her demise, Iqbal Begum – who attended to her for two and a half months (may Allah grant her honour for this in this world and the next) – started crying. She said that once, when Maryam saw her crying, she lovingly said to her, “Why are you crying, silly! Allah is the Most Powerful. Pray because He can grant me health.”

In the evening of 4 March, Dr Mir Muhammad Ismail Sahib and Dr Hashmatullah Sahib informed me that her heart was extremely weak and the medicines were no longer having any significant effect. Thus, I stayed there longer than usual. When they felt relatively satisfied, I went to Sheikh Bashir Ahmad Sahib’s home to rest.

At around 4 o’clock in the morning, someone came running to the house and told me to rush to the hospital as her condition had got worse. It was in that moment that I became certain that my love was ready to depart this world. I began praying for her spirituality and mine. Now, her heart condition began deteriorating more and more while my heart began inclining towards the final destination of every human being.

Final word

When I returned to her at around five o’clock from the room next door, where I sat with heart specialists, she was in a cold sweat and was showing signs of extreme faintness, though she could still talk. She said something to me upon which I counselled her. From that, she gathered that perhaps I was telling her that she had shown spiritual weakness. She peered up towards me with eyes that begged for mercy and said, “My dear master! Don’t let me die a kafir [disbeliever],” meaning that if she had committed an error, then I should not be cross with her, rather I should show her the correct way.

At that point, I could see death racing towards her. Now, my fragile heart was experiencing emotions completely out of my control. I began losing my strength. But I soon realised that perfect loyalty to God Almighty and [Maryam] required that I advise her to continue zikr-e-ilahi [remembering Allah] and that I forget about my anguish. I managed to control the sentiments in my heart and pull myself together. I knelt down beside Maryam and told her softly, “Do not think ill of God; He will not allow the progeny of Muhammad Rasulullahsa [to which she also belonged] and the daughter-in-law of the Promised Messiahas to die a kafir.”

Our last conversation

In those moments when she was able to speak and listen, I wanted to express my love to her. But I came to the conclusion that now, she no longer belonged to this world and had moved on to the next; our relationship had reached its end. Now her ties were only with her Lord and to intervene in that connection would be disrupting the sanctity of that relationship. Therefore, I decided to remind her of the Hereafter so that she could occupy herself with the remembrance of Allah. However, I feared telling her so bluntly lest her fragile heart sank before the perfect opportunity to remember Allah.

Finally, I said to her, “Maryam. Everyone has to die someday. Look, if I am to die before you, then I will beseech God that He permit me to meet you every now and then. But if you die before me, then you ask God to permit you to meet me every so often. Maryam, if this happens, convey my Salam to the Holy Prophetsa and the Promised Messiahas.”

Recitation of the Quran

After this, I said, “Maryam, because of your illness, you are not able to recite the Quran. Come, let me read it to you.” Accordingly, I recited Surah al-Rahman to her, which was very dear to her (something I was not aware of and was made aware of afterwards by her close friends) along with its translation. When I completed its recitation, she told me in a soft tone to recite more. I realised then that she had come to terms with those being her final moments and thus, I began the recitation of Surah Ya-Sin.

Final prayers

Now that the realisation of her final moments had dawned on her, when she tried to tell me something by saying, “My beloved…” I explained to her, “Maryam, now is the time when you should forget your love for me and focus on remembering the One Who is both yours and mine.”

“Maryam, now is the time to remember the Beloved One”, after which I would often at times recite the following, urging her to repeat after me:

لَا اِلٰہَ اِلَّا اَنْتَ سُبْحَانَکَ اِنِّیْ کُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِیْنَ

[There is none worthy of worship except Thee. Holy art Thou; verily, I am from among the wrongdoers.]

رَبِّ اِنِّیْ ظَلَمْتُ نَفْسِیْ فَاغْفِرْلِیْ ذُنُوْبِیْ اِنَّہُ لَا یَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوْبَ اِلَّا اَنْتَ

[O my Lord, I have wronged my soul. Pray forgive me my sins, for there is none else except Thee who can forgive sins.]

بِرَحْمَتِکَ اَسْتَغِیْثُ یَا اَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِیْنَ

[Through Your Mercy do I seek assistance, O You Who are the Most Merciful of those who show mercy.]

After some time had passed, I observed that by nature, the words she uttered were those of the remembrance of Allah. There was a unique calmness in her composure and it seemed from her state that she was gracefully seeking the mercy of God in His presence. In such a beautiful, sweet and soft tone, she repeatedly uttered the words:

یَا حَیُّ یَا قَیُّوْمُ بِرَحْمَتِکَ اَسْتَغِیْثُ

[O Living, Self-Subsisting and All-Sustaining (God), through Your Mercy do I seek assistance.]

She would utter it in a manner and shape her lips round while saying the words “astagheeth” that would have us believe that she was conversing with Him with full certainty and was only saying those words in a state of worship. Otherwise, her soul was saying to Him, “O my Lord, I know You will forgive me.”

Later I called Dr Mir Muhammad Ismail Sahib and told him that I could not bear it any longer and that he should continue to reassure her. Thus, he carried on reciting portions of the Quran and saying various prayers aloud, after which I returned for a small amount of time, followed by Mir Sahib again taking over. In this manner, we took turns to speak to [Maryam]. Her voice had now fallen silent, though her lips were still moving.

At that point Dr Latif Sahib arrived from Delhi and told us that her illness was aggravating her asthma. He feared that that would increase her suffering and suggested that she be given oxygen. The ventilator was brought in that helped her breathing, but despite it, her breaths became shorter and shorter. Her lips were still moving with the prayers she uttered.

God’s decree

Finally, at ten minutes past two, after I had anxiously left the room, Mian Bashir Ahmad Sahib [brother of Hazrat Mirza Bashiruddin Mahmud Ahmadra] left the room and gestured to me to enter. That gesture meant that God’s decree had come to pass. I entered the room and saw a still, motionless Maryam, with traces of happiness and satisfaction in her expression. Due to her prolonged illness and irritable nature, I feared that she would show signs of intolerance in her final hours. This is why, upon seeing her extraordinary and exemplary belief and end, I spontaneously cried out, “Alhamdolillah!”

Sajda-e-Shukr – Prostration of gratitude

I fell into prostration facing the Ka‘bah near her bedside and thanked Allah repeatedly that He saved her from trials and that her life ended with her thanking Allah. Thereafter, we made preparations for her body to be taken to Qadian. Her body was brought to Sheikh Bashir Ahmad Sahib’s house, where she was bathed and finally taken to Qadian – the abode of God’s Messiah – after arrangements had been made for cars and coaches.

For the first night, she was kept on the ground floor of her own house and on the second day, after Asr, she was taken to her final resting place in Bahishti Maqbarah at the feet of God’s Messiah, where I stood at the head side and helped lower her body into the ground.

اَللّٰھُمَّ ارْحَمْھَا وَارْحَمْنِیْ

[O Allah, show mercy on her and show mercy on me.]


She had four children – three daughters and one son – Amatul Hakeem, Amatul Basit, Tahir Ahmad [Khalifatul Masih IVrh] and Amatul Jamil. May Allah bless them all and be with them in this world and the next. When we brought her body to Sheikh Bashir Ahmad Sahib’s house, the youngest daughter, seven-year-old Amatul Jamil (who was very dear to Maryam and is dear to me) started wailing and crying out, “Hai Ummi, Hai Ummi” [O mother! O mother!].

I approached her and said, “Jammi (as we call her), your mother has gone to Allah’s house. There, she will be much more comfortable. It was Allah’s decision that she should go to Him. Look, the Holy Prophetsa passed away. Your grandfather [the Promised Messiahas] passed away. Was your mother greater than them?”

May God’s shelter never be removed from this girl for even a minute, for as soon as I said those words, not once did she wail for her mother. As soon as she heard those words, she fell silent, so much so that the next day, during the funeral procession when her elder sister – who is rather unwell – screamed and fell unconscious, my Jammi approached my youngest wife, Maryam Siddiqa, and said, “Choti Apa (as my children call her), how strange is Baji. Abbajan says that it was God’s decision for Ummi to pass away, but she still cries.”

O my Lord! O my Lord! Will you not protect that person in the Hereafter from every anguish and pain whose daughter never displayed anguish at her mother’s death merely for Your pleasure?

O my Merciful God! It is the right of Your servants to have such an expectation of You and to fulfil this desire is most befitting for You.

Desire to understand one another

As I have stated above, due to her illness, my Maryam was often under the illusion that I never loved her or that I loved her less than others. For this reason, she would be pleasant to others, but often times, she would quarrel with me and thus, our life was a mixture of love and disputes. I loved her immensely and seeing her face in times of difficulty would ease my distress. But she remained firm on her stance that she was loved less than others.

During her final illness, the two ladies who stayed with her in turns both told me separately that she had accepted her mistake. One of the ladies said, “[Maryam Begum] expressed that she would often think that Hazrat Sahib did not love her, but she said that she was mistaken. She said, ‘The lengths to which he has gone in my illness has proven to me that he indeed loves me dearly. If I come out of this alive, I will give him all the love and respect possible.’”

The other lady narrated, “She told me that she was certain that Huzoor loved her. She said that if she stayed alive, she would spend the rest of her life in his service.” Destiny had it that they would both tell me this after her demise. If they had told me during her lifetime, it would have been a source of great happiness for me. I would have gone to her, taken her hand in mine and said, “Maryam, do not worry. You do not need to serve me or show me your love and respect. This thought occurring to you has reciprocated all my love.”

Perhaps she would have felt satisfied by this and my heart would have been overjoyed. If we were able to stand face to face even once in a way that we both understood each other, just for a minute, how joyous would that moment be for the both of us! But this was not in Allah’s plan. Perhaps the misfortune of our shortcomings demanded a huge sacrifice from us.

Sound mind until the last breath

The extraordinary thing is that despite such a long illness, Maryam Begum remained in her senses till her last breath. Two days before her demise, when she had reached the extremes of weakness, she said to me, “Can you arrange for some small tablecloths.” Thus, I requested Maryam Siddiqa to go by car and select some according to her choice. When I showed [Maryam] the tablecloths, she was extremely drowsy. But she replied, “They’re nice. Get a dozen of them.”

I thought that she was not in her senses because in the hospital room, there was only one coffee table. I responded, “Alright. Okay!” and left the room worriedly with tears in my eyes. After some time, her maid came out from her room and said, “She is calling you.” As I entered, she immediately overcame her drowsiness, but was still weak. After gesturing to come closer, she told me, “You got so worried. I am in my senses. I did not order the tablecloths for the hospital; I ordered them for our home.”

I feel that her weak heart made her believe this afterwards. The reality is that she was affected by temporary drowsiness, but she understood and saw through my worry. After assessing the situation, she realised that she had made a mistake, thus correcting the tablecloth issue so that it seemed sensible and explained the logic to me.

Prayer for the visitors

During Maryam Begum’s illness, the wife of Sher Muhammad Khan Sahib of Australia, Iqbal Begum offered her services the most. This pious lady served [Maryam] day and night for two and a half months, forgetting about her children and her home in a manner that led me to worry about her mental state. May Allah the Almighty always cover her and her entire family with His shadow of grace.

Then there is Dr Hashmatullah Khan Sahib, who had the opportunity to serve her for a long and continuous period of time. Sheikh Bashir Ahmad Sahib hosted us for many months and helped us in so many ways.

Mian Ehsanullah Sahib of Lahore worked day and night, to the point where I had to pray that Allah enable him to always live a pious life till the end. Hakim Sirajuddin Sahib of Bhati Gate, alongside his wife, provided food and would frequently visit us in hospital. Dr Mirajuddin suffers from Parkinson’s disease and is quite aged. When he would arrive tumbling and huffing and puffing in the hospital and would call me outside to speak to me about [Maryam’s] health, many a time, upon seeing this grace of God Almighty, my eyes would well up with tears; God filled the hearts of people with the love of an unworthy being like me.

Many others from Lahore showed signs of immense sincerity and helped us in so many ways. Seith Muhammad Ghaus Sahib of Hyderabad showed such a high example of sincerity that is rare even among biological brothers. Despite being at a distant place like Hyderabad, his daughter-in-law and daughters first resided in Qadian for a long period and would often visit [Maryam].

When they finally returned home, Seith Muhammad Azam left his business and settled in Lahore and sometime after the demise did he return home. Dr Latif Sahib visited many times, travelling from Delhi. Many people from my own family lovingly made many sacrifices. This was but their responsibility and other than through prayers, how else can I repay them?

O my Lord! Exalt all these people with Your grace and blessings and those who I have not been able to mention or am unaware of. O my Lord! I feel as though these pious servants of Yours deserve a more sincere and caring leader than me. What more can I say to intercede for them before You?

The sincerity of the Jamaat

The sincerity shown by the Jamaat upon Maryam’s demise was a means of increasing our faith. It is the sheer blessing of being associated with Muhammad Rasulullah [Messenger of Allah], peace and blessings of Allah be upon him, and the Promised Messiah, on whom be peace, that we find such high levels of loyalty in our Jamaat. May Allah accept their sincerity and loyalty, distance them from wrongdoings and increase them in righteous deeds. May He provide spiritual and moral sustenance for their future generations Himself. Allahumma amin.

O my Lord! I now conclude this piece and refer to the famous incident mentioned in Bukhari as a reminder by saying that at the time of Maryam Begum’s demise, I attempted to occupy Maryam in Your love, despite my bleeding heart, and sacrificed my emotions so that her soul could eventually return to You, entrenched in Your love.

My Dear Lord! If that act was wholly for You and in exaltation of Your Name, then in return, I ask that You remove any painful memories of Maryam from my heart. My Lord! When Maryam Begum promised to raise the late Amatul Hayy’s children and I promised to love her immensely, I prayed to You that You may instil her love in my heart. You accepted that prayer and despite thousands of misunderstandings, her love never escaped my heart. Today, I ask of You again to let her love remain in my heart so that I may pray for her. But [I ask that You] remove any painful memories so that I may serve Your religion in the best manner, till the very end.

My Lord! I have full certainty that Maryam is now in the Hereafter and that the truths have been made manifest to her. If You reveal this to her then she will not mind it, rather she will tell You, “In order to purify my heart, my husband urged me in my final hours to forget his love, for God Almighty is our true love and that I should only focus on thinking about Him. Now I intercede for him and ask that You take back the love for me he prayed to You for; not to the extent that he forgets about praying for me, but just enough that this love does not cause him distress and becomes a hindrance in his work.”

A comprehensive prayer for the entire Jamaat

O my Lord! How beautiful You are! No one knows when my death will come and for this reason, today, I entrust all my children, my dear ones and the entire Ahmadiyya Jamaat to You. My Lord! Become wholly theirs and enable them to become wholly Yours. May my eyes and my soul never witness their pain. May they flourish, spread and sprout and may they establish Your Kingdom in the whole world. May they return from this world to You by leaving behind such progeny that is no less in service to Your religion.

O God! Never let me witness their pain and never let my soul feel sorrow for them. My Lord! Bless the souls of my Amatul Hayy, my Sara and my Maryam. Always come to their help and aid and grant them security from all evil in the Hereafter. Allahumma amin.

From the depths of my heart

O Soul of Maryam! If God Almighty conveys my voice to you, then here, listen to my final message from the depths of my heart and then go and enter the mercies of God where grief ceases to exist; where pain is unknown and where the memory of us earth-dwellers does not trouble anyone. Wassalam

وَآخِرُ دَعْوانَا وَدَعْواکُمْ اَنِ الْحَمْدُ لِلّٰہِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِیْنَ

[And in the end, our claim and your claim is: All praise belongs to Allah, Lord of all the worlds] ٍ

اَبْکِیْ عَلَیْکِ کُلَّ یَوْمٍ وَلَیْلَۃٍ

اَرْثِیْکِ یَا زَوْجِیْ بِقَلْبٍ دَامِیْ

I cry for you, every day and every night. My dear wife! I mourn your death with a bleeding heart.

صِرْتُ کَصَیْدٍ صِیْدَ فِیْ الصُّبْحِ غَیلَۃً

قَدْ غَابَ عَنِّیْ مَقْصَدِیْ وَمَرَامِیْ

Upon your death, I became the prey that is trapped in the early hours, whilst searching for food. The shock struck me in a way that made me forget where I was and where I was headed.

لَوْ لَمْ یَکُنْ تَأیِیدُ رَبِّیْ مُسَاعِدِیْ

لَاَصْبَحْتُ مَیْتًا عُرْضَۃً لِسِھَامِیْ

Had God’s succour not been at hand, I would have become the target for the arrows of my own heart, thus becoming like carrion.

وَلٰکِنَّ فَضْلَ اللہِ جَاءَ لِنَجْدَتِیْ

وَاَنْقَذَنِیْ مِنْ زَلَّۃِ الْاَقْدَامِ

But Allah’s grace came to my help, and kept me from stumbling.

یَا رَبِّ سَتِّرْنِیْ بِجُنَّۃِ عَفْوِکَ

کُنْ نَاصِرِیْ وَمُصَاحِبِیْ وَمُحَامِیْ

O My Lord! Protect me with the shield of Your forgiveness; Be my Helper! Be my Companion! Be my Protector!

اَلْغَمُّ کَالضِّرْغَامِ یَاْکُلُ لَحْمَنَا

لَا تَجْعَلَنِّیْ لُقْمَۃَ الضِّرْغَامِ

Sorrow is like a lion that eats away at our flesh; God! Prevent me from becoming the morsel to this lion!

یَا رَبِّ صَاحِبْھَا بِلُطْفِکَ دَائِمًا

وَاجْعَلْ لَھَا مَاْوًی بِقَبْرٍ سَامِیْ

O my Lord! Always accompany her and send down Your blessings on her; And make her abode a shrine of eminence.

یَا رَبِّ اَنْعِمْھَا بِقُرْبِ مُحَمَّدٍ

ذِیْ الْمَجْدِ وَالْاِحْسَانِ وَالْاِکْرَامِ

O my Lord! Bless her with the nearness of Muhammad (Rasulullah), who is bestowed majesty, beneficence and reverence (by You).

All worldly loves and sorrows are temporary. True love exclusively belongs to Allah the Almighty. By being at one with Him can we meet with our dear ones and by distancing ourselves from Him can we lose everything. The things our flawed perceptions consider painful are usually blessings in disguise from God. Thus, I declare that my heart can be false, but my God is True.

وَالْحَمْدُ لِلّٰہِ عَلیٰ کُلِّ حَالٍ

[And all praise belongs to Allah in every condition.]

Seeking God’s grace,

Mirza Mahmud Ahmad

Links and Related Essay’s

My Maryam – Part I

Hadrat Doctor ‘Abdus Sattar Shah Sahib, Compiled by Ahmad Tahir Mirza, p. 63, Majlis Khuddam-ul-Ahmadiyyah, Pakistan


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Jalsa Salana of 1921 and did Mirza Ghulam Ahmad know Arabic?

As we all know, MGA didn’t know Arabic properly enough to write academically in Arabic, nor could MGA pronounce easy Arabic letters like Duad, Ain, Ghain and Qaaf, just to name a few.  After 1897, MGA began to claim that he learned 40,000 roots of Arabic in one night. At the Jalsa of 1921, the Khalifa seems to have claimed that MGA did in fact learn arabic in one minute, which is ridiculous.
December 1921
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Anwar-ul-Ulum, Vol. 6, p. 435

The opponents called him [the Promised Messiahas] ignorant and said that he did not know a word of Arabic. However, he replied to them, ‘I know where the treasure of knowledge lies and I will bring knowledge from there.’ Thus, he invoked God the Almighty’s attribute of Al-Aleem [All-Knowing] and he was granted matchless knowledge. He used to say, ‘Once, 40,000 origins of words [of Arabic] were inspired to me by God Almighty in one minute.’” 

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Who is Dr. Abdul-Hakim Khan, the famous Ex-Ahmadi?

Dr. Abdul Hakeem Khan is a very controversial figure in the world of Ahmadiyya, especially in terms of how MGA began calling Muslims as Kafirs in 1906. Abdul Hakeem Khan was a follower of MGA since at least 1886 (See Haqiqatul Wahi), since MGA himself admitted to this fact. Abdul Hakeem Khan was most likely a follower of Noorudin and thus followed Noorudin to MGA in 1889.

He left Ahmadiyya publicly in 1906 and later predicted that MGA would die in 1908. His main beef with MGA was on 2:62 on Salvation. In 1906, he wrote a series of books vs. MGA entitled, Zikrul-Hakim, in one of these he discussed the death of Maulvi Abdul Karim. Further, he caused MGA to begin to do open Takfir of the Muslim world. Dr. ‘Abdul-Hakim Khan, also wrote a booklet “al-Masihud-Dajjal”, which refers to MGA. Dr. Khan accuses MGA of telling lies, he calls MGA a dajjal [deceiver], corrupt, and an embezzler. In his booklet, al-Masihud-Dajjal, he has listed a number of my ‘vices’. He calls MGA as selfish, egotistical, arrogant, Antichrist, Satan, ignorant, insane, great liar, lazy, corrupt, one who breaks his word, and an embezzler. Dr. Khan then toured the major cities of the Punjab like Lahore, Amritsar, and the rest, delivering public lectures and invariably ascribing all kinds of misdeeds to MGA, ridiculing MGA, and declaring
MGA to be dangerous to the world; more dangerous than even the Devil. This was not all, he also publicly announced in each lecture, in the presence of hundreds of people that God had revealed to him: ‘During the next three years, this man [i.e. me] would die on account of his being a liar and an impostor.’ On 14 August 1906, Maulawi Nur-ud-Din received another letter from Dr. Khan, wherein he says that God Almighty had informed him on 12 July 1906 about MGA’s demise to the effect that MGA shall die within a period of three years from this date (by 1909).

Haqiqatul Wahi is written in the summer of 1906, with just small portions written in 1907, Abdul-Hakim Khan is 64 times.

However, after MGA died, in 1911, his son, Mirza Basheer ud Din Mahmud Ahmad confirmed them.


He is mentioned in MGA’s famous list of 313 companions of MGA of 1896 (See Dard). He is listed as number 159, his name is written as Dr. Abdul Hakim Khan of Patiala.

MGA mentions Abdul Hakeem Khan on page 69 of the online english edition of “”A Gift for the Queen”” (Tohfa-e-Qaisariyyah). Abdul Hakeem Khan donated 2 rupees towards the Diamond Jubilee of the Queen.


Some new information has emerged in terms of Dr. Khan of Patiala. In this video, Mirza Masroor tells the world that Noorudin supervised this Tafsir by Dr. Khan, nonetheless, they threw the book out since it might make their library filthy. MGA on 2:62.

His Urdu Tafsir—Tafseerul Quran BilQuran

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His Urdu Tafsir was published in 1900
pdf page 123/316
Narration no. 665

” Dr M Ismail narrated to me that Dr Abdul Hakeem Khan Murtadd used to see many dreams. The structure of his skull was such that he will get Ilham or dreams everytime he gets a nap or sleep. He used to come to qadian from the age when he was a student. Once he came to qadian after a long time on a long leave. Here he used to narrate his tafseer to mgaq everyday between maghrib and isha prayers, and expected parises.

The reasons and beleifs that he mentioned at the time he became murtad are now part of “ghair Mubaeen” (lahori group). ……….Once they proposed that there should be no mention of mgaq and ahmadiyyat in “review” (the magazine) instead, there should be general islamic essays to have more publication. Upon this mgaq showed his anger and said BY LEAVING ME OUT, DO YOU WANT TO PRESENT DEAD ISLAM? Abdul Hakim Khan wrote to mgaq that you’r servent of Islam not Islam itself but mgaq differed with this statement (and said) that his existence is the spirit of islam itself. ”

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He donated towards the building of the Minaret ul Masih. He is listed as #33, his name is spelled out as Doctor Abdul Hakim Khan, Narnaul (Patiala State)[See Dard].
See page 44 of the ROR of 1905 to see the announcement of the english commentary of the Quran. 

He writes an english commentary of the Quran, it seems to be the first ever by an Ahmadi.

His english Tafsir was published in 1905. The Holy Quran with a Commentary by Dr Abdul Hakim

On page 112 of this Tafsir, the Ahmadi author argues that Esa (As) was born from biological parents, this seems to confirm what MGA and his team wrote in 1891, in Izala Auham, i.e. that Esa (As) was raised by his father, Joseph.  Muhammad Ali split in 1914 and his Tafsir was published in 1917 wherein he made the same argument, i.e. that Esa (As) was fathered biologically by Joseph and the Qadianis never objected.


He quits Ahmadiyya and MGA writes private letters to him which are published by Dr. Khan the following year. In these private letters, MGA writes that all of those who reject him are non-Muslim, per Allah, even those Muslims who haven’t heard of MGA. His main beef with MGA is on the salvation of Non-Muslims. Dr. Khan argued that Christians and Jews didn’t have to follow Allah and were still allowed to get to heaven, if they were good people.

Dr. ‘Abdul-Hakim Khan, writes a booklet “al-Masihud-Dajjal”, which refers to MGA. Dr. Khan accuses MGA of telling lies, he calls MGA a dajjal [deceiver], corrupt, and an embezzler. In his booklet, al-Masihud-Dajjal, he has listed a number of my ‘vices’. He calls MGA as selfish, egotistical, arrogant, Antichrist, Satan, ignorant, insane, great liar, lazy, corrupt, one who breaks his word, and an embezzler. Dr. ‘Abdul-Hakim Khan also writes his series, Zikr ul Hakim.

Dr. Khan gets another book published, Zikr-ul Hakim, wherein he writes that Ahmadi’s are worshipping MGA. He also explains that he was a follower of MGA for 25 years, which takes us to 1881.

See ‘Abdul-Hakim’s booklet Dhikrul-Hakim, page 12, VIA Haqiqatul Wahi

“”There was one Maulawi, Muhammad Hasan Baig, a maternal cousin of mine who was bitterly opposed to your gracious self. I was informed concerning him, in a dream, that if he persisted in his opposition of the Messiah of the Age, he would die of plague. His residence was outside the city in a well-ventilated and commodious house. I had related this dream to his real brother, uncle, and other relatives. A year later, he did die of plague. “”

Zikrul Hakim No 4.pdf
Zikrul Hakim No 4

Zikrul Hakim No 5

Zikrul Hakim no 4 exclusively consist of the letters written between Dr and Mirza Ghulam – the reason for the Dr abdul Hakim to write, collate this book was to let the world know -as to what happen between them. There was no internet/emails or telephones -that is how we communicate with people -and in those days the normal way of communication in that time was to write letters and the general understanding was that each party will publish those letters to let the world know “the facts” – as Mirza ghulam did not publish letters which were written to him by Dr Abdul Hakim – Dr took upon himself to publish them.

“So the entire Qur’an Majid is filled with the praise of God, and has made Tawhid and purification of the soul as the basis for salvation, and not embracing faith in Muhammad”
Reference: Al-Zikr al-Hakim No. 4; p. 12, footnote
“He (the Prophet) never said that if any Jew, Christian, worshiper of God, righteous person does not accept me then he will not attain salvation…The Prophet (Sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam) never said anywhere that all of the worshipers of God and righteous people are Jahannami (going to Hell) until and unless they believe in me.” (ibid)


Qadiyanis published ISHTIHAR against me in and Albadar and did not publish my letters to MGA, so i published them. On 13th May, on the basis of a dream, I published that I take my BAIAT back till Mirza Qadiyani correct his mistakes. The articles about him in my tafsir would be termed as doubtful and if Mirza did not correct and announce his apology, I will break his BAIAT and would remove him from my tafseer. Since there is no chance of his correction and announcement of apology so I have removed articles mentioning him from my tafseers. These corrected pages have been sent to buyers for correction of tafseer with them.

I have repented from Allah s.wt. for accepting the claims of Masih e Maoud, Mehdi and Mujaddid by Mirza Qadiyani for the following reasons in brief.

1st: Excommunication of all muslims who do not believe in mirza, declaring them to be hell bound and saying that maintaining relationship with them is HARAM.He further says that Allah swt informed me that it is HARAM for u to offer prayer behind a denier, falsifier and a hesitant . Then He published in Alhakam dated 24th May, 1905, that he who marries his sons or daughters to non Ahmadi are out of my Jamaat.
In recent correspondence he expunged the condition of denier, falsifier and hesitant he kept writing to me that 1.3 billion muslims who do not believe in him are out of pail of Islam and are hell bound irrespective of fact whether Ahmadi tabligh reached to them or not. I Wrote to him that we may not excommunicate to those of Ummat e Muhammadia who do not excommunicate us.Ahmadis may be allowed to offer prayer with them. He got so infuriated on this that he declared me a MURTAD. (Heretic). And reply to me senselessly.

Second : The faith that deliverance depend only on accepting Mirza is a cursed theory. It not only negate the whole world but it also pose a challenge to the powers of Allah. Because the item most needed in world has been created in abundance by Allah air, water, so if deliverance depended on faith in mirza then Allah s.w.t. Would have created love. of Mirza in the human nature. : Demanding such iman was against Allah s.w.t ,s characteristic of Rahman
Third: This iman is against the characteristic of RAHIMIYAT Because deliverance would not be granted to one who does not believe in Mirza , means Allah is not Raheem

Fourth. It is also against the powers of Allah as Maliki Youmiddin .it suspends this power as deliverance not possible without acceptance of Mirza.

Fifth : This theory of Mirza is against all powers of Allah . So if u believe in above instructions of Mirza Your Kalima would be like this :
“LA ILAHA ILLALL MIRZA” because per Mirza basis of deliverance is not obeying Allah Swt but obeying Mirza Qadiyani.

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Zikrul Hakim page 40-42

Last night before going to bed, I called my God and made my humble prayers and said O my God you say in Quraan that i would forgive every thing except shirk whereas your Masih e Maoud (mirza) says Allah will not forgive disbelieving in me and will forgive everything else. Now should i deny your words or the words of your Masih?

I said to my God O my Sustainer you have always ignored my weaknesses and forgave my mistakes. U also know that what ever good deeds I do are only for your sake and to please U. U always answered my prayers, assisted me sympathised to me. U r not cruel, harsh and ungrateful like Mirza Ghulam Qadyani.

To the core of my heart i am ever ready to accept truth but it is self praising, self worshipping and harsh Mirza who did not reply to me. So what should I do. After this submission i saw a dream that Colonel Fateh Muhammad Khan came to me Abdul Ghani khan is also seen and asking for treatment of his father,s appendicitis. He showed me a prescription containing many anti gastric medicines and told me that these medicines did not work. Then I told Fateh Muhammad Khan that Mirza had removed me from his Jamaat. It has been good for me that i have been removed from Jamaat for the sake of truth. Then in the dream I say who is mirza in front of Allah and say very soon thunderbolt might fall from sky on this jamaat and kill them all.

On the basis of this dream I am writing to you again that Moosa a.s ordered murder of those who committed shirk whereas you support such peoples of your Jamaat. Now I present comparison of your revelations with Quraan.
* In Your ilham you say, may God give me authority over fire. Quraan says Allah has the authority on everything and the rule on the day of judgement.
* Your ilham says about yourself Ya Shamsu wa Ya Qamaru. (Sun and moon) But i say your light has not illuminated even Qadiyan and your family.
* Quraan says All praise to Allah, whereas your ilham says Allah praises you in the heavens.
* You say people in France Italy and Columbia killed by earthquake due to my disobedience. On the contrary, your worst enemies and opponents like Molvi Muhaammad Hussain, Sanaullah Amritsari, Owner of Paisa Akhbar and Peshawari Group have not been killed despite their worst opposition.

For God sake you test yourself and your jamaat on this standrad as to how much u and jamaat worship Allah and how much do u worship a man. I request you to return my first letter as i want to publish this correspondence so that good natured peoples could benefit from this. If u do not return it, i will publish it with the help of my memory because i dont have its copy.

Was the tragic death of Molvi Abdul Karim not a sufficient cause for u to avoid making mockery of others agonies? but regretfully the childish attitude prevalent on u all the time has made u much proud, ignorant and heartless. It was you who used to make mockery of the miracles of Hazrat Essa a.s, now with excessive ilham and prophesies u have made a joke of yourself . The taste of Quraanic knowledge is absolutely missing from u and Jamaat. U could not present a single academic miracle which was the need of the hour. U could have written a miraculous commentary of holy Quraan that could have decided the differences and could have reformed peoples and provide guidance to the masses.
Humble self
Abdul Hakim Khan
Assistant Surgeon
From Tarauri, District Karnal India.

Zikrul Hakim NO. 4 page-28 


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Dr. Abdul Hakim Khan Patialvi was a keen follower of MGAQ, remained in his jamaat for 20 years. Then he found wrongdoings of Mirza and violation of Quraanic teachings and commandments of Allah Swt by MGAQ and his Jamaat. He made correspondence with MGAQ and Molvi Nooruddin for reform and correction but both MGAQ and Nooruddin rejected his criticism. This correspondence is very lengthy contains heavy Arabic and Persian idioms and phrases, studded with Quraanic verses and ahadis. So it is not easy to be translated in english word to word in a short time. However, I have tried to present central idea of the correspondence as under:-

Subhanallah what a logic is this, Quraan teaches us to say salam but u deny and do not say salam to me in your letter. U termed my word of Basis of salvation (madar e nijat) as vague whereas your whole letter is vague. 
I have always been the truth seeker. I am the same Abdul Hakim whose translation and commentary of Quraan has been greatly admired by Mirza Qadiyani. Whenever i read my tafseer to mgaq he could not advise a valuable points, he only said admiration. However i got valuable correction addition of points and advise from you whenever I read it over to u. He could not advise on the debate of Hazrat Suleman a.s and said I will explain it to u after consulting a book, WHICH WAS never found by him ever.

I took allegiance of Mirza in the hope of my spiritual and knowledge uplift which could not be achieved. Unfortunately, after my reform request, this very tafseer and my other books have been returned stuffed in gunny bag reached to me in a bad shape.

In the beginning Mirza sb used to say that I am only Maseel e Masih then a masih mehdi, sub ordinate prophet, better than all prophets and then Allah s son then Allah states his praise in the heavens thus committing shirk. Not only this he went to the extent of insulting other prophets and chosen persons.

His claim that earthquake in other parts of world have come due to my rejection, is also a foolish idea, how can Allah punish those with earthquake who have not even heard of MGAQ and his claims. It did not happen in the time of Harat Muhammad s.a.w that He was rejected and victimised by peoples of Makkah but peoples of other areas are killed.So Noorddin sb support of this argument of mirza does not suit to a person of your calibre.

I believe in Allah and his prophets alike as Quraan says کل امن با اللہ وملائکتہ وکتبہ ورسلہ لا نفرق بین احد من الرسلہ
But Mirza denied this verse when he said ” believing in Allah and prophets is of no use unless one does not believe in me. He published that God Says O Ahmed if u were not there I wouldn,t have created skies. He did hundreds of such things against Islam and Quraan. Few of which are described here as under:-
Donations were asked for, and mostly received for publishing baraheen and other books but books were not published as per commitment nor the money received as charity or Zakat was returned. Such money is being eaten up.
Excessive lies.
When there was no funds for publishing of baraheen why Reward Ishtihar of thousands of Rs were published. Why peoples were abused with Haramzada without Devine knowledge.
Abusive and obnoxious Language
Molvis who were opposing for the sake of Islam were called as waladul haram, (illegitimate), swine , cursed, satan, blind, etc etc
What Mirza do is that collect Chanda upto 700 or 800 per month arranged best food for himself and others, amber musk. Kewra, tonics, dry fruits and kernels are made available and used abundantly. 
I to 1.5 mound was supplied daily from Lahore during the illness of Molvi Abdul Karim. Bivi sahiba had so much jewellery that Mirza has mortgaged his garden to her for a loan of Rs. 1000 cash and jewellery worth Rs. 4000, Traveled upto Dehli in upper class of train for the sake of Bivi sahiba only. Whereas Hazrat Muhammad s.A.w. Has spent a simple life in a small house, had food after 3 days mostly. Now tell me should I follow Hazrat Muhammad s.a.w or the comfortable life of Mirza Qadiyani. 
Hazrat Muhammad s.a.w made the arabs pagan as brother to each others Today with his abusive language and false claims created a divide and schism that can not be repaired. 
Should we follow mirza on the issue of Hajj or the Quraan which instruct the rich men to perform Hajj.
He asked for zakat money for his books and sold them on highest price.
HE SAID GOD SAYS TO ME THAT U r from me and Iam from u. To me u r like my son.
Construction minarat in Qadiyan is useless and waste of money and against ahadis.
It is absolutely against islam and Quraan and an insult to the prophets and quraam.o hadis.
MIRZA IMPOSED MONTHLY CHANDA FOR EACH MEMBER in case of non payment his name will be struck down from bayaat.

I am ready to accept any true advise but cant tolerate with above mentioned ideas of mirza which are against Quraan o sunnah.
Humble self Abdul Hakim Khan 
Now residing at Trouri District Karnal.

Below is almost a word for word translation of “”3 pages in two episodes page no 381-383″”

More so they declared 1.3 billion muslims, who were muslims since last 13 centuries, as kafir without doing tabligh. When only 3 to 4 lectures on toheed and greatness of Allah swt were delivered, ahmadis got disturbed. One namely Abdul Ghani Khan said to me from Jamaat side as to why I do not mention the name of Ghulam Qadiyani in my lectures. I said i have been describing the Hamd e bari which is the tafseer of surah Al hamd and haven,t come to the Rabbul Alameen, AlRahman iraheem maliki yomiddin as yet as only after that I would come to the praise of Muhammad s.a.w. Then i would present praise of Mirza Qadiyani. Some people said the praise of Allah and His Toheed was the mission of Mirza too, but this did not satisfy hard liner of jamaat and they increased hue and cry on the issue. One day Abdul ghani said while describing touheed e bari taala , u consider mentioning of Mirza Ghulam Qadiyani as shirk but i consider it a shirk if u describe praise of Allah and do not mention Mirza Qadiyani. This attitude made me sad.

I kept emphasising on the point that no body can be perfect until he follows all orders and injunctions of Quraan. To be stuck and remain adamant on one issue and leave the other is extreme ignorance. Quraan also supports this view point. Quraan says.” People chopped of Quraan into pieces” it says on other place” behold Allah,s rope and dont be divided”. Quraan says arrogance is the basis of Fasad. But the crazy followers of Mirza would not listen to the voice of Quraan.

By chance Molvi Mubarak Ali of Sialkot visited Patiala and started his Waaz. I requested him to stress on the points of greatness of Quraan, need for Quraanic teachings and following all Quraanic commands, in his sermons. It was my opinion that If we could succeed in creating love of Quraan in our Jamaat, that would resolve many problems. Or at least make Quraanic teachings as much popular in our jamaat as the Ishtahar of Mirza Qadiyani published in Akhbar Al badar and Alhakam. Molvi Mubarak Ali stressed the above points in his lectures. Qadiyanis immediately realised that these lectures were being delivered on my wish so they prevailed upon Him and soon Molvi sb started his lectures on same old pattern containing justifications of Mirza ,s prophethood from Qur’an and in all of lectures he proved Mirza to be a complete reincarnation of Muhammad S.A.W. This increased my displeasure and hopelessness.

Then khawaja Kamaluddin and Molvi Muhammad Ali sb, on the recommendations of Molvi Inshaullah Khan decided that from now on, only general islamic Articles would be published in Review of Religion Qadiyan and those containing special debates on Mirza Qadiyani would be published as special supplements for only qadiyanis or for those who request for such supplements. I felt great comfort on this decision and said to my self that there are high calibre intellectuals amongst the ahmadies. Now everything will be done according to Quraanic teachings and our message would spread all over world in a good manner. But this happiness could not last longer. Mirza,s fast lovers and hard liner created fuss and opposed the decision by making remarks about 1300 hundred old islam in AlBadar and Alhakam that should we present the dead islam to the world.



May i ask them as to how come there is nothing like Mari fat, or life present in Quraan? Do islam and Allah swt were given new life today by Mirza Qadiyani and were dead earlier. To cool of the fire of opposition by hard liners, Molvi Muhammad Ali has to re announce his belief and faith in Ahmadiyya انا للاہ و انا الیہ راجعون

In those days I applied for 3 months optional leave with the intention to move to Qadiyan and start my lectures on the Quranic topics according to its sequence. I was hoping to create Quraanic understanding amongst Ahmadis. But i could not remain patient and started correspondence on some important proposals with MGAQ. As a result of which Mirza Qadiyani ordered my IKHRAJ from his Jamaat.
This correspondence has been published separately under the title AZZIKRUL HAKIM NO 4. This book can be obtained from Manager Matba Azizi Tarouri District Karnal by sending money order of 1 anna. Mare Reading of this correspondence would reveal to the reader as to of what knowledge, vision and character is Mirza Ghulam Qadiyani.

I write to him something, he understands other, on each issue I present Quranic evidence and he rejects it holding it to be my personal opinion. He declares Muslims as kafir and the whole world to be hell bound without any reason. Declares Allah and Quraan as dead until it is without mirza ,s association. He urges that all calamities ie earth quakes, volcanic ruptures, accidents, epidemics, be that in Italy or Ecuador, or any where in the world, are happening due to my falsification and rejection by the inhabitants may they be aware of Mirza or not.

He does not considers the calamities as a result of disobedience of Allah and his prophet Muhammad s.a.w. He thinks Allah to be his orderly or a lunatic. (Nauzubillah) that is bent upon destroying the world out of the love of Mirza without thinking as to who are His actual falsifiers. Whenever there is a destruction anywhere in the world happens, Mirza and his followers feel pleasures saying this is another sign of Mirza’s truthfulness. They anxiously wait for the destruction of the world and death of opponents. The more is the destruction the more they enjoy.


MGA publishes Haqiqatul Wahi, 1907, Abdul-Hakim Khan is 64 times. MGA denies calling his deniers as non-Muslims in any books of his or announcement. However, MGA cleverly doesn’t add private letters. 



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Ahle Hadith, 12 June 1908

“But, we expected this to happen soon, as had been announced by Dr. Abdul Hakim of Patiala. The doctor had stated, ‘My revelation concerning Mirza of Qadian, which may kindly be published, is that: (1) The Mirza will die on the 21st day of Saavan, 1965 (4th August, 1908) of a fatal disease. (2) A distinguished woman of the family of Mirza shall also die.’ [Weekly Ahle Hadith: 15.5.1908]. However, we cannot refrain from saying what is true. Had the doctor stopped at what he had stated before, that is, his prediction of Mirza’s death within fourteen months and not fixed a specific date as he has done then those objections could have never been raised as are being raised today by the Paisa Akhbar of the 27th, wherein it is stated that had the prophecy been left as, ‘up to the 21st of Saavan’ and not altered to, ‘on the 21st of Saavan’ it would have, indeed, been wonderful. But alas, his revelation that Mirza will die on the 21st of Saavan, that is 4th of August, has been published in the Ahle Hadith issue of 15th May, 1908. We wish that he would have left his earlier revelations unaltered, without giving a specific date. Then there could have been no excuse.”


From Mirza Masroor Ahmad’s Friday Sermon of 22-Jul-2016

“”When Abdul Hakeem announced his renunciation of Ahmadiyyat, Hazrat Khalifatul Masih I called upon his students and asked them to take out Abdul Hakeems’s commentary from his library so that Allah Almighty be not unhappy or angry to me because of that. Although it was the commentary of the Holy Quran and the commentary of several verses were written in consultation with Hazrat Khalifatul Masih I but still he ordered such an action because he had left the religion and so the wrath of Allah is on him. Some people make an objection that when there is sort of a punishment from the Jama’at towards someone or some action has been taken, then that person says that the action taken against me is wrong and presents a comparative situation where other people have not been penalized.This objection is not something new. In every era, such objections have arisen. People do it today and have been doing it in the past too. Therefore, mentioning such people Hazrat Musleh Maud(ra) says that the fact of the truth is that in order to keep the system right there is one circle of unity and oneness. Hazrat Musleh Maud(ra) says that certain things due to their particular trial (fitna) are considered very significant due to the specific situation. Due to the trial which is instantly there, sometimes the actions are taken in a very different way. But the people who criticize the decisions they do not consider this and are simply very fond of criticizing. Many people say like this and then they gather supporters, thus these punished people are not aware. What methods should be adopted for spreading the word of God (tabligh) and how shall this be done? Regarding this Hazrat Musleh Maud(ra) has mentioned that at this time the preaching work is done through distribution of pamphlets and brochures but these pamphlets cannot be carried for long due to their weight. ……”””””””””””””
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